I hope you live a life that you’re proud of and if you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.-Benjamin Button

Time heals all wounds

To me; fearless is not the absence of fear. its not being completely unafraid. to me; fearless is having fears. fearless is having doubts. lots of them. to me; fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death. fearless is falling madly in love again; even though you’ve been hurt before. fearless is walking into your freshmen year of high school at fifteen. fearless is getting back up & fighting for what you want over and over again; even though every time you’ve tried before, you’ve lost. its fearless to have faith that someday things will change. fearless is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can’t breathe without them. i think its fearless to fall for your best friend, even though hes in love with someone else. & when someone apologizes to you enough times for things they’ll never stop doing, i think its fearless to stop believing them. its fearless to say “you’re not sorry”, and walk away. i think loving someone despite what people think is fearless. i think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is fearless. letting go is fearless. then, moving on and being alright; thats fearless too. but no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it. you have to believe in love stories & prince charmings & happily ever after. thats why i write these songs. because i think love is fearless.~Taylor swift

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

i feel loved


ok soooooo omg i like took the hardest math test today lmao .. well i just came back from the psychologist and wow was that depressing .. i mean we still talked about being a lesbian and liz but atleast this time it was more uncomfortable because i rather talk about liz and maggie then talk about how scott sexually harrassed me n i apparently liked it cause i didnt fucken say no! Its easier to say you would say no if that happends then to actually say no when it really does happen now i understand why people who are raped dont tell anyone. Cause after it your angry, upset, you feel like crap, and embarassed. And he kept asking me why i didnt yell at scott to stop ... well fuck u dr.T fuck u !

And then we were talking about cutting and i really sounded sick cause i told him how good it feels and he made me show him my scars w.e i dont care ... but they are apart of me and i love all my scars .. they each have a story behind them and a name to go with them .. like scott or liz .. but just because those people have the names of the scar as the memorie doesnt mean that thats the only reason i cut ... but idk .. it just feels good ... but ima gonna try to stop again cause its a bad habbit,.

And today I knew that i had friends that cared about me for a while now, but i never realized how much they really cared... each and every friend came up to me and gave me a huge hug and asked me if i was ok and told me they missed me in school yesterday. The gave me notes that i missed in class, and listend to me! omg it was like they actually cared and it made me realize ... if i were to go ne where not one or 2 people would miss me but tons of people would miss me and i loved being a part of peoples lives. This shows that i have impacted their lives and it felt DAMN GOOD!

I gave sarah her birthday present and man omg her face! its amazing! i love the smile people get on their face when i give them a gift and i no they love it the second they see it! Shes my bffl and im soo happy that i made her bday good one!

Wow im writing a lot today lol .. and I still dont know what to get my friend eeman but ill get her something good .. last year i got her a hijab n its pretty lol ... and 9th period today the teacher had us use stickers and scribble all period it was like amazing!!!

I FINALLY GOT MY PERIOD TODAY!!!! ITS BEEN LIKE A WEEK YAY!!!! Lol n i was begginning to think i was preggers : O

umm ummmummm idk wat else to say : )

ok welll since i cant thing about nething else ima gonna say thats all for today

oh wait i had GSA today and we were tlaking about if we think being gay if a choice and if theres a spectrum of bi gay straight .. and honestly i think most people dont choose to be gay but some experience can help in making that person realize they are gay or feel less attracted to the opposite sex.

but yeah lol thats all for today : )

ps. MAGGIE<3333333333333333333333333 : )

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