I hope you live a life that you’re proud of and if you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.-Benjamin Button

Time heals all wounds

To me; fearless is not the absence of fear. its not being completely unafraid. to me; fearless is having fears. fearless is having doubts. lots of them. to me; fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death. fearless is falling madly in love again; even though you’ve been hurt before. fearless is walking into your freshmen year of high school at fifteen. fearless is getting back up & fighting for what you want over and over again; even though every time you’ve tried before, you’ve lost. its fearless to have faith that someday things will change. fearless is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can’t breathe without them. i think its fearless to fall for your best friend, even though hes in love with someone else. & when someone apologizes to you enough times for things they’ll never stop doing, i think its fearless to stop believing them. its fearless to say “you’re not sorry”, and walk away. i think loving someone despite what people think is fearless. i think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is fearless. letting go is fearless. then, moving on and being alright; thats fearless too. but no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it. you have to believe in love stories & prince charmings & happily ever after. thats why i write these songs. because i think love is fearless.~Taylor swift

Monday, August 23, 2010

almost a senior

So senior year is going to start in about 2 weeks and its all happening too fast! My schedual took forever to figure out, but as of this moment I love it, but their gonna put me into an AP class I think >.< .. idwtdt anymore. Anyways ... Starting the first the Moves in skating change, so I'm testing them On the last test session with the old moves and I better fucken pass. Only thing is that they make me almost passout thats how hard they are on my asthma. And my jiujitsu test for my yellow belt is this thursday and I know I'll get it, I'm just really nervious as hell. Umm what else? Oh john and I are good friends now and I broke up with bobby. I don't think I'm ready to date anyone (guys) at the moment. Thats basically it.. and works over which im actually sad about! .. i loved getting paid!
umm thats all for nowI guess .. damn im tired
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Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Im kinda getting that feeling again

I got my schedual and finished my college essay and have a list of colleges I want to go to. I'm gonna be a senior already. I feel like all my friends graduated though and I'll be alone :/ it makes me sad. I know I have people like Lizz, Liz, ariella, megan, eeman, ...and a few more people... but yet i still feel alone. I don't want to go away to college. I don't want to leave all my friends. I have anxiety .. I can't even take my fucken ACT anywhere because it would be at a different school. I need a psychologist really badly! gahh Idk wat to do. And work sucks! I have like 2 more weeks left not including this week. I feel like the whole summer was wasted and I cant get in touch with my really close friends and Idk why:/
i guess thats basically it.. oh i was at work today and we were talking abotu kissing girls and all the girls i work with were like "thats grose" ...i wanted to punch them... but i didn't .. and thats it so i'm gonna go
hopefully itll all get better.
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