So ... thanks giving this year is gonna suck sooo bad lol its not even funny, but the thing is I was invited to go to my friends house. I told my sister, but i feel bad leaving my sister alone on thanks giving when shes coming all the way from Boston to be with me. So welll she and I made three plans!
plan:
a) go into my room and talk about what we are going to get on black friday
b) go to starbucks until things are better
c) go to the diner and dont come back until the next day ... start shopping then lol
So yeah .. I mean like this is just atleast it will make things easier ... and the thing is I know i couldnt handle it anyother way so this is good ... but i still willl want to cut, but i wont because ... he as in .. yeah the guy i like .. he made me scared to cut .. as if i do itll be like I'm stabbing him ... and i would hurt soo much if i was the one who hurt him so I just cant .. or if i do i wont tell him .. but he has my knives so i would have to use a kitchen knife , but thats sketchy and I'm not that deperate lol ... so yeah no cutting for now. I have an ap psych test next period and I feel like im going to fail .. im scared : ( because my grades need to get better already gahhhhh
so yeah llol .. this is my life IT SUCKS ASSS ... hahaaaa ...... welll I'm going to go .. do something .. not studying wise though ..
write soon
ps. I kinda sorta told him that im kinda sorta in love with him but its smalll ..and honestly i guess i shouldnt have told him because what if ... welll i mean he obviously doesnt feel the same way ... so maybe i just scared him .. maybe i should have kept it to myself idk ... w.e
byesssss
O And ummm ... i misss daddy
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