I hope you live a life that you’re proud of and if you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.-Benjamin Button

Time heals all wounds

To me; fearless is not the absence of fear. its not being completely unafraid. to me; fearless is having fears. fearless is having doubts. lots of them. to me; fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death. fearless is falling madly in love again; even though you’ve been hurt before. fearless is walking into your freshmen year of high school at fifteen. fearless is getting back up & fighting for what you want over and over again; even though every time you’ve tried before, you’ve lost. its fearless to have faith that someday things will change. fearless is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can’t breathe without them. i think its fearless to fall for your best friend, even though hes in love with someone else. & when someone apologizes to you enough times for things they’ll never stop doing, i think its fearless to stop believing them. its fearless to say “you’re not sorry”, and walk away. i think loving someone despite what people think is fearless. i think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is fearless. letting go is fearless. then, moving on and being alright; thats fearless too. but no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it. you have to believe in love stories & prince charmings & happily ever after. thats why i write these songs. because i think love is fearless.~Taylor swift

Sunday, November 15, 2009

how can you hate something you love


so I am blogging ..because i am bored lol ... sooo today is alright ... i'm scared because second quarter starts tomorrow and I need my grades to go up sooo much! And I work my ass off and I get nothing. So library during lunch and idk what else. Just focusing . Its good im not in a relationship right now. I dont want a relationship i just want someone to be there .. someone to love me and save me when i need saving lol .. sounds stupid .. but i actually do need that. Any ways thanks giving this year is going to be unbearable terrible and idk if ill survive it. My brother just became a veggitarian and my sister in law is also and they are bringing their friends from india to our house. like kill me now! and on top of that .. i have my family problems.. i rather not talk about on here because its personal and i never talk about it on here because people do read this. and my moms sister aka my aunt will be here and she always makes fun of me for something anything .. this year itll be the boy. last year it was my thumbs and the year before that it was me being still a baby? wtf! ughhh So am i looking forward to thanks giving? Absolutely NOT. Will i want someone to save me? YES please do!!! even for ten min. anything is better then nothing. I have the wierdest dream last night hahaa baca was in it ... but its too inappropriate to put on here haha ..and it was wierd! ohhh my friends from singapore invited me to her sweet 16!!! and im trying to figure things out so i can go! and I get my lisence in less then 5 months!! and i can get my jr.license when ever i take the test .. which will hopefully be next month!!! yay!!! im soo completely happy ... for the driving .. the boy .. striving for good grades .. and my sister comming home .. not for working hard or thanks giving .. or my family . I do realize this is long .. but its not like anyone reads this anyways besides maggie lol ... sooyeah ..i should take a shower tonight ... i want to kisss .. lol sorrry random! oooo i was at the story today and i saw the blaire which trials and i just had to buy it for lizz! im sooo great! lol .. btu idk when ill see here again .. i want to ask her if i can see new moon with her but shes seeing it with her mom so ill feel bad if i ask ... i might pretend i forgot shes going with her mom and be like heyy u wanna go on sat with me .. and see wat she says lol ... wow im a bad person!



Its good to know that as we change our secrets do too. <3>

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