So I had something dramatic happend to me today and like I cried for 3 hours but I am soo proud of myself because this time last year i would have cut! ... but not this year. I simply cursed a lot and cried hahaa But the thing i realized is .. .. everyone is hiding something wheather its as small as a parent dying or as big as cancer. Whether or not they tell you .. doesnt depend on how much they trust you .. or weather your close or not .. but rather how they feel about it. One day they might wake up and realize its funny and thats the day they come to terms with it and tell you.
Some people go through a lot .. like losing a parent .. failing tests even when they work hard ... trusting way too many people .. and getting themselves into trouble .. with drugs eating disorders .. cutting? people around us .. make mistakes every day .. but why does it always feel as though our mistakes are being looked at with a microscope?!
So I am going to camp in like wat 2 .. 3 days .. and when i get there .. i will be on my phone constantly .. freaking out about me not having internet .. and wondering .. if things will change. They changed last year .. alot .. i with i could tell meghan how much she helped me. If it werent for her ... god only knows where i would be .. because between her and alyssa they made me realize that people do care about me .. and people get hurt all the time but cutting just hurts the people around you .
you make who you are ... if you want to change you have to fight for who you are.. who you really are. So Im going to leave it off with this message right here and if i get internet in camp i shall write then ... otherwise .. idk .. be on sometime soon <3
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