I hope you live a life that you’re proud of and if you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.-Benjamin Button

Time heals all wounds

To me; fearless is not the absence of fear. its not being completely unafraid. to me; fearless is having fears. fearless is having doubts. lots of them. to me; fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death. fearless is falling madly in love again; even though you’ve been hurt before. fearless is walking into your freshmen year of high school at fifteen. fearless is getting back up & fighting for what you want over and over again; even though every time you’ve tried before, you’ve lost. its fearless to have faith that someday things will change. fearless is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can’t breathe without them. i think its fearless to fall for your best friend, even though hes in love with someone else. & when someone apologizes to you enough times for things they’ll never stop doing, i think its fearless to stop believing them. its fearless to say “you’re not sorry”, and walk away. i think loving someone despite what people think is fearless. i think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is fearless. letting go is fearless. then, moving on and being alright; thats fearless too. but no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it. you have to believe in love stories & prince charmings & happily ever after. thats why i write these songs. because i think love is fearless.~Taylor swift

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

bored during 2nd period

Sooo i finished all my work in this class ... so im on my blog. I am so stressed out about school its crazy. Im not even going on facebook except to check my messages until the 23rd because thats my last regents. I am soo scared I am going to fail ... so my iced coffee is in the corner of the room right now because i cant have it near the computerrs butbutbut its soo good i want some! omg soo i went to dunkin donuts this morning and the guy making my coffee with like completely flirting with me and i was like ummm ? lol ... but yeah. I didnt do my english hw last night but i dont really care hahaa i did all my other hw this quarter soo .. w.e ..... ooo umm i think i am getting my year book today and im kinda excited its my first yearbook from public school!!! xD umm lets see what else... I am totally and completely not ready to date hahaa! Sarah was completely right. Like last time I dated someone and fell in love i missed my best friend! i actually lost 2 best friends. I am not letting that happen again. Plus .. i realized what my sexuality is hahaa .. well you see I like guys more then I like guys ... but if a girl asked me out i wouldnt say no .. yeep ... but with me you never know .. maybe I will change how i feel in a month. But since i realized this .. i have been my like myself ... then after I was sexually harrassed last year. I mean each day I become more like the old me which is good. xD I am extremely happy because of it. I laugh more ... and i like a boy !!!! and and and .... i feel pretty .. well my self esteem is becoming higher and its all because of the guy i like!!! you see ... he made me realize that not everyone hates me. Hahaa ok ok ... well thats obvious ... wow im soo wierd ... im trying to say .. and hes sweeet and I am soo glad he and I are friends... i would say almost close friends. I hope he feels the same way. The thing is the closer I get to him the more I dont want to go out with him because the more i get to know how and be friends with him the more I dont want to loose that. I dont want to get hurt .. i get hurt soo much and I know he wont hurt me but idk .. i guess ill see where things go ... you never know. I feel like this year went by soo fast!!! omg! my heart! im going to the doctors today for it ... and lets see what happends .. btuidk ..i hope that my heart skips a beat while im there .. hahaa it always skips a beat though .. i will be standing thinking about pizza and it will skip a beat >.< crazzzyyyy <3
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