soo i wrote a message to scott.. illl even copy and paste it here ... h/o
"Scott .. what to say .. hmm well ok i didnt start to write a message to you because i didnt have anything to say. I have a lot to say actually. dont worry this wont be like the other message, but sorry if its long.
I am upset with you and i obviously as you can tell from the past, I dont really have the strength to ignore you. Its not who i am, in fact i cant ignore anyone. I am upset with the fact that i thought we were best friends. I am upset with the fact that you asked MY best friend to the prom while you knew ... whatever im not making a message to yell at you or tell you im going to ignore you because i'm not. I just am simply writing a message to tell you that i am hurt at what you did. I dont care about prom, but i do care about the fact that we ARE best friends! and you hurt me. I dont care about our past or history or w.e you want to call it because .. yeah it was fucked up and now my who sexual orientation is fucked up and i started cutting because of it... but i am letting that go and i hope you can do the same. I liked our relationship last year before all this shit. I loved the long talks and our conversations when we were ourselves. And why cant we go back to that? it was so easy and simple at the time.
so Im not trying to make you feel guity or upset .. i just wanted to tell you how i feel because its just who i am.
ps. its only awkward if you make it awkward and honestly i dont think its awkward when we hang out or talk.
thanks and sorry"
And then i went to a party and he was there and he talked to me about it and he said he didnt ask me to prom because when someone ANY ONE touchs my hips and squeezes i laugh! WTF THATS BULL FUCKEN SHIT! I AM SOO PISSED RIGHT NOW!!! LIKE UGHHHHHH and then he says the other reason is because this girl caroline doesnt like my sister .... WTF DOES THAT HAVE TO DO WITH ME!!!!! LIKE UGHH I HATE GUYS !!!! I HATE SCOTTT AND YET MY HEART ALWAYS FALLS FOR HIM WTF?!?!?!
w.e im donE!
I am upset with you and i obviously as you can tell from the past, I dont really have the strength to ignore you. Its not who i am, in fact i cant ignore anyone. I am upset with the fact that i thought we were best friends. I am upset with the fact that you asked MY best friend to the prom while you knew ... whatever im not making a message to yell at you or tell you im going to ignore you because i'm not. I just am simply writing a message to tell you that i am hurt at what you did. I dont care about prom, but i do care about the fact that we ARE best friends! and you hurt me. I dont care about our past or history or w.e you want to call it because .. yeah it was fucked up and now my who sexual orientation is fucked up and i started cutting because of it... but i am letting that go and i hope you can do the same. I liked our relationship last year before all this shit. I loved the long talks and our conversations when we were ourselves. And why cant we go back to that? it was so easy and simple at the time.
so Im not trying to make you feel guity or upset .. i just wanted to tell you how i feel because its just who i am.
ps. its only awkward if you make it awkward and honestly i dont think its awkward when we hang out or talk.
thanks and sorry"
And then i went to a party and he was there and he talked to me about it and he said he didnt ask me to prom because when someone ANY ONE touchs my hips and squeezes i laugh! WTF THATS BULL FUCKEN SHIT! I AM SOO PISSED RIGHT NOW!!! LIKE UGHHHHHH and then he says the other reason is because this girl caroline doesnt like my sister .... WTF DOES THAT HAVE TO DO WITH ME!!!!! LIKE UGHH I HATE GUYS !!!! I HATE SCOTTT AND YET MY HEART ALWAYS FALLS FOR HIM WTF?!?!?!
w.e im donE!
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