I hope you live a life that you’re proud of and if you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.-Benjamin Button

Time heals all wounds

To me; fearless is not the absence of fear. its not being completely unafraid. to me; fearless is having fears. fearless is having doubts. lots of them. to me; fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death. fearless is falling madly in love again; even though you’ve been hurt before. fearless is walking into your freshmen year of high school at fifteen. fearless is getting back up & fighting for what you want over and over again; even though every time you’ve tried before, you’ve lost. its fearless to have faith that someday things will change. fearless is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can’t breathe without them. i think its fearless to fall for your best friend, even though hes in love with someone else. & when someone apologizes to you enough times for things they’ll never stop doing, i think its fearless to stop believing them. its fearless to say “you’re not sorry”, and walk away. i think loving someone despite what people think is fearless. i think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is fearless. letting go is fearless. then, moving on and being alright; thats fearless too. but no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it. you have to believe in love stories & prince charmings & happily ever after. thats why i write these songs. because i think love is fearless.~Taylor swift

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

That certain thing called the boyfriend

I have no Idea what I'm going to do this summer at all and it scares me a little bit because I could go down to delaware or I could go to nyu for precollege program or I could work. I don't really know what I should do. But yes I was stalking on Cassies .. maybe I spelled her name wrong .... blogg and Like I think shes falling for someone! and thats great and even though she hates me I am really happy for her. I'm crushing on someone bigggg time!!! and hes soooo nice.! yes I know I just said HE!!!! I LIKE A GUY! and not just any guy .. oh no! this guy if nice and sweet and cute and adorable and did I mention his grades? he is in exellerated like my but he is in honors exellerated! and his eyes! they are like greenish grey and he understands me! he doesnt think I'm crazy! and I told him about the cutting and I told him I stopped and I told him about the being bi and the sexual harassment and he still talks to me! and hes coming to my party this weekend and and and he is exactly a half a year younger then me! and hes ughhh amazing! and and and did I meantion hes JEWISH! yess and his mom wants him to get a girlfriend whos a nice little jewish girl!
IM NICE
IM LITTLE
IM JEWISH
AND IM A GIRL!!!!!!
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and hes strong really strong and yes hes confused at the moment ... I know how that feels and I told him I'm always here if he needs to talk. I am going in deep. I don't know how I like a guy .. its wierd but I don't ask.

oh and the play is over and now i dont see him everyday btu I do miss the whole cast they were all so nice and sweet ... but I shall do the play next year oh! and scott wants to ask me to prom!!!!! since wen did I start liking guys again?
welll I miss the play "the boyfriend" stupid play though lol


until next time :)
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