I hope you live a life that you’re proud of and if you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.-Benjamin Button

Time heals all wounds

To me; fearless is not the absence of fear. its not being completely unafraid. to me; fearless is having fears. fearless is having doubts. lots of them. to me; fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death. fearless is falling madly in love again; even though you’ve been hurt before. fearless is walking into your freshmen year of high school at fifteen. fearless is getting back up & fighting for what you want over and over again; even though every time you’ve tried before, you’ve lost. its fearless to have faith that someday things will change. fearless is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can’t breathe without them. i think its fearless to fall for your best friend, even though hes in love with someone else. & when someone apologizes to you enough times for things they’ll never stop doing, i think its fearless to stop believing them. its fearless to say “you’re not sorry”, and walk away. i think loving someone despite what people think is fearless. i think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is fearless. letting go is fearless. then, moving on and being alright; thats fearless too. but no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it. you have to believe in love stories & prince charmings & happily ever after. thats why i write these songs. because i think love is fearless.~Taylor swift

Thursday, March 19, 2009

rant before english lol

Soo by the way MAGGIE my phone was on aLLLL night! and you could and should have called me!!!!! ... but yeah soo anyways .. i called suicide hotline a little while back and the people on the phone are obnoxiously nice!! its really scarey and I kinda don't like it! I called and when they answered i forgot what my problem was besides the fact that i was really depressed and soo i asked for a few groups for gay w.e and cutting w.e lol and they gave it to me and that was greatt and basically yeah lol I wouldn't call again unless it was an emergency but it helps to know they r there if i need them! .. but anyways ... today is a good day and im happy ? shit is that possible ? samantha to be happy again? SHOCK! well I'm the exactly back to my old self but I not depressed as much and I realize where everything stands in my life. I am being stupid and counting down to my bday but screw it who doesnt count down to their birthday!!! it 14 days left which is exactly 2 weeks from today and in two weeks from now i will have my permit!!!!!!!! omgomgomg!! permitt~!!!!! yay!! then i could drive to school and rebeccas and maggies and ariellas and and and my friends from schools houses and places and eat taco bell or like maggie could come and i could drive her to taco bell .. okii maybe thats too extereme because well I still have to take drivers ed and well i need to be 17 in order to drive butbutbut i wanna drive now!!! lol w.e okokok soooo yesterday I like had tons of convos with perryy and and and like we took a pic together and hes soo sweet and nice and I invited him to my birthday party <333>
there is only like 7 min left of class butbutbut i don't feel like getting up and walking through the library down the stairs past the guidance office and past the gym and into the english wing .. its too much effort especially with all the assholes and they sluts and then the emos and the weird people and the people who are depressed and the overly happy people and the people crying because they just failed a test and the people laughing at their teachers and and and yeahh too much energy to get up from this comfy seat in the mac lab and go to english lol ... wow a rant about people in my school!

you have the stupid freshman which are immature and have no idea how stupid they look and the slutty freshman who get invited to partys and go and no one really cares about them but they think they are bad ass and then you have sophomores. they think that they know everything about everything yes the sluts get invited to partys but well their life is screwed as it is they don't need to actually get screwed and you have the sophomores who are friends with the senoirs and whos friends are going to the prom yeah thats my group although i also hang out with freshman and some people in my grade and afew junoirs
but then you have the junoirs who are bitchy because thats the hardest year of high school and you have the senoirs who dont give a FUCK! and and and yeah lol .. okokok .. soooooo basically the bell is gonna ring in like 3 min and soo i should get off and but i dont want to but i know you will read this soo please txt me! cause cause cause like u need to talk to someone and im HERE ALL THE TIME!!!! xD yeep and i will help you because im an amazing friend fuck its wat im known for in school xD soo yeah

byesssssssss
eww english!
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