I hope you live a life that you’re proud of and if you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.-Benjamin Button

Time heals all wounds

To me; fearless is not the absence of fear. its not being completely unafraid. to me; fearless is having fears. fearless is having doubts. lots of them. to me; fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death. fearless is falling madly in love again; even though you’ve been hurt before. fearless is walking into your freshmen year of high school at fifteen. fearless is getting back up & fighting for what you want over and over again; even though every time you’ve tried before, you’ve lost. its fearless to have faith that someday things will change. fearless is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can’t breathe without them. i think its fearless to fall for your best friend, even though hes in love with someone else. & when someone apologizes to you enough times for things they’ll never stop doing, i think its fearless to stop believing them. its fearless to say “you’re not sorry”, and walk away. i think loving someone despite what people think is fearless. i think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is fearless. letting go is fearless. then, moving on and being alright; thats fearless too. but no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it. you have to believe in love stories & prince charmings & happily ever after. thats why i write these songs. because i think love is fearless.~Taylor swift

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Starts with a B and ends with my heart beatiing fast

So theres this guy, Shock I know right? A guy! ... Well to be honest I have liked him since like october .. but I ignored it. Some of you might ask why ? Why follow what your heart is telling you?
But this isn't your normal crush because well hes my best friends ex and she loved him and I'm not the type of person to do that to my best friend. And thinking back .. I kind of regret wasting so much time worrying about things. Hes so amazing! He makes me smile and forget all the bad stuff in life. He compliments me and understands me even though he doesn't know me .. he completely understands me more the most people. He makes me laugh and he makes me want to live. Never making me feel bad for my past or want to change who I am. He's unique, cute, smart without trying, yet hes slow at the same time. And he doesn't freak out when it comes to my sexuality/ orientation .. confused yes , but never once did he ask me what sex I date, but only if I bring it up. Never did drugs, alchohol .. but i like that shit! . and hes shy. I love that! After my past .. I want a guy to be shy. Hes romantic in an innocently cute way and he can keep secrets. He loves to listen and cares about everyone! Raising my self-esteem like amillion points and yet he won't ask me out ... I just .. I will say yes in a split second soo he should just ask already.

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